i noe u say we could be happy threesome together. but i'm telling u, no, i'm going. u cared, maybe u dun. this sound lyk a romance story huh? i'm telling ya it's not. i'm a possessive person who wants one best friend to have onli me as a best friend. not two. so since u feel beta tt way and everything seem beta tt way, i'm going. ok maybe i told u i'm staying, but the hopelessness u din see inside mi, is giving up. i wun steal wateva it dun belong to mi. well, it's my fault tt i want my best friend onli to haf mi as my best friend. even myself sumtimes think tt it's not the proper way of thinking, so i could jux write here and forget about this hopelessness, and be happy..with a share of friendship. that doesn't belong to me. someday i'm going to return to its rightful owner. can't u see i'm letting go? maybe u did maybe you dun. but u dun care.neither do i.
tell the truth this yr's the most problematic yr i had in my memory. and oso the yr i speak my mind the most. but no one understands, not u, not anyone. yaya..okok..fine..this is all they say. and so i say, fine. nvm. dun bother. mi crapping. i'm being non-sensitical. and den u jux shake ur head and walked off.all of u. well sounds accusing? i'm not..i dun bother. i dun even think that even if u realli care u'll realli understand how i feels. no one will. i had always this self smallness tt i'm not allowed to show. afterall i'm the one who brought upon all these things. i'm the great one here who brought the whole family here. i'm the marvellous one here who got into a richman's sch from pri to sec..maybe to jc..and me, being poor mi, dun even dream to complain. no u dun haf to react, realli. i wrote to the newspaper in pri sch to release my sorrow, and i ask the person if unfortunately my essay was v gd pls dun post it. can u imagine mi writing my sorrow to dunno hu cuz no one understand mi?not tt he understands, jux tt well, i let it go, i got well. full stop. nothing more. i got it out. i dun need understanding. i dun need anything. i just want to get it out without ppl staring at mi weirdly and ppl mocking at me and ppl misunderstanding mi and think tt they understand mi. i tried so hard to explain myself, but in the end u onli get those things u want to hear in...