this post is meant to update about yesterday, but I might not do so effectively since, well, it is about the past.
hrmm..i excused myself from TM yesterday to go for CO but anyway i was late. Don't ask me why would i give up TM for CO but that was the way i chose it to be so yep..haha i should say that yesterday was quite a fruitful day and i'm starting to gather confidence about my suona playing again..for those who don't know what is going on, i'm being transferred back to suona from percussion (or had i mentioned this before?) and all turning to be better than i thought when i had my confidence back..maybe it was the coaching of the instructor that had caused it, or it might just be that i am getting determined to do well for suona, for the performance and SYF..and i believe in my ability to create miracles when i am all for it :D anyway yep so due to my quite successful playing although TTK did not come yesterday to conduct us, i was still quite happy at the end of it..although the fact that TTK chose VJ over MJ is disheartening, i might just understand why..the standard we gave him last week was disappointing enough for him to give up on us, well, at least for this week.
it was quite comical i guess, when the conductor (after scolding us for his own mistakes) say we have 2 mins of rest while we can point out where we have our displeasure in him and his conducting and that he would try to change it. because i bet that moment he said we can voice our opinions was the quietest moment in CO, ever. We can even hear the air con blowing..why not voice our opinion? you may ask. The fact is, all of us know that he won't change no matter what we say about him. being the egoist who think everyone in the world is wrong and wronging him, what change and self reflection can we expect from him? And this was proven true when sihan told him that his rhythm was unstable most of the time. All that followed was a whole 5 mins of self excuses saying it might be due to his being very emotional at that moment causing him to lose the stability (thus shoving the blame off his shoulders..so much for self-reflection), AND him going on to complain about most of us not co-operating with him and making him angry, "blaming" him for mistakes that WE committed..well what did i tell you about his ego? And i can firmly tell you, with evidence, that he would never change. Ok, no extremity. He would most probably not change unless something seriously wrong happen to him. All of this can be seen from last week when we had tremedous improvement on the song under the baton of TTK and collapsed when our conductor came into the picture again. Not that we were really rebellious against him. What CAN we do if the conductor is conducting to the conductor stand and using his fingers while on it, with unstable rhythmic sense and saying the exact opposite things TTK said? Part of his confidence should have been shattered after that because he had been harping on the er hu and gao hu and the strings for the past week. I supposed he expect making no mistakes if he goes back to improving on something that he is more familiar with? and our instructor was saying we would be getting gold without the conductor, who lowered our standard to bronze. We have all the personal skills as my junior says, and the conductor is not combining our skill into the songs, and just cannot seeing what he'd missed. So much for the conductor. it'd be never enough just to complain about him.
LOL anyway went to airport together with my sis to fetch my mum. She bought a lot of..FOOD :D lol and we've almost finished it within the night. Fats!!
haha nothing much for now..and i guess the complain about the conductor is long and boring..well..and yes, i'm not doing anything about it, won't do anything about it until i perfected my skills :)
discovered that more and more dhsco ppl are going into their jc's co to help..boo..
ending here..
cIao!
anyone interested in going for the east zone jc co concert?? pls pls pls contact me and buy the tix from me :x