This is a picture of a rose folded from the purple bandage..I know my fingers are fat and short :X
BLACK FRIDAY. A STRANGE DAY.
somehow i am feeling that this week is not yet over. how strange isn't it? when all i wanted all this week from day 1 was for it to end, and when it finally is, i feel that it's not over...is it something that i have left undone?
random random random..
I have a happy family. There are my sisters and my sisters and my father and mother. Our family is very big. But we are all happy together. But sometimes i will wonder how does it feel to have a smaller family. But i do not want my family to change. I like it this way. :) LOL random does random do, i AM random.
the other time when mrs liang ask if i will feel neglected living as the middle child and in a big family (ask me for the whole story, don't bother to find out here cause i did not write anything about it..conversation IS diff from here :] ), i had said no. strange as it seems, i think i really am not neglected. Come to think about it, i think i am paid with more attention to sometimes due to my "weak-ness"..as in, who would not if your child occasionally nose bleed without reasons (though not serious most of the time and had not happen for very long) and always faints when subjected to extremity? [okay I sounds weak but that's misconception OK?] and being at that special place as the scholar in the family, i often am watched after. things i do and things i want, what time i would be home and who i am with, studying or playing, etc. The list can go on..when my sis can happily show on the computer, i am always being scolded if i watch on my own or i joined my sis. life isn't fair, really. But there are also times i feel that i am special, like my mum allowing me to do things that she would probably won't allow my sis do..staying overnight at friend's house, asking for everything when i am supposed to take care of them on my own..lots and lots of things that i think i should not have deserved. All in all, my point is, I had most of the time feel that i am not neglected. Maybe there are and were times when i thought to myself that maybe i'll get more attention from my mum if i falls sick with fever ot something, i am already showered with attention before i am sick.
i shall continue to be random.
I think i am a very good hypocrite. i really am.
Plan DON'T work for me, seriously. So don't ask me to plan before hand okay? Nothing will come true.
okay i shall not be random anymore..getting tired..my eyes wanna close..zZzzZ..tomorrow got CO..tomorrow have to fetch my mum :D
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NITE