haha this is the three pictures that i found in my email when i read through my inbox (finally) and since i find it meaningful, i cut out some of the sentences and paste it here..hopefully i am not doing something illegal..
although i know that most of the times when i plan for something, it won't come true. but i think it's still best to have a plan?somehow..maybe it's just for reassurence..both for others and for myself..that is what i know theoritically..but i'm feeling quite unjust because of all those changes that changes me..
and i'm becoming more agitated too easily nowadays, which is definitely not good..i can't judge the situations objectively and i can't react correctly..most of the time when i act "out of character" aka i can't control my mood i'd do something i'd think about a lot and regret later..and when i try too hard on something, either to please or to ignore or to spite..i always overshoot it..surpass the limits and make everyone unhappy..who includes me..
anyway..still considering if we should continue chingay..but most probably i would? it's this thing with me..even though i don't like something and i express with such a vehement tone that i don't like it..i'd eat my words most of the time..like this instance..even though i express that chingay is so tiring and boring and i don't feel like attending anymore, i will most likely continue going for it..maybe it's my responsible self working herself out..or it's my indecisive self that decide no change is the best change for me..or it's just that i'm too hypocritical for even myself to realise who and what i really am.."I am not what I am" and not "I am not what I seem"..(gosh i'm applying what i learn to my blog..*shudders* but in the wrong context lah so nvm)
cya!