hi!
this week is a packed week.. loads of schedules that i can't catch up with the speed..too many commitments that i have to attend to..it's only tues and i'm feeling crushed by all the things that had happened..
let's see..start of the week declared the start of east zone CO camp..and i went to help out at dhs..was looking after the shengs and there are a few who do not know how to read the chinese score so we (me and rachel) had to call justine infinite times to ask her to photocopy more scores, ask for the english standard score, etc. we practically ran up and down the 4 levels of dhs when we had imagined to be able to slack after 1/2 hr of fenzu..then we had lunch and the food from the hostel is as usual, still edible but not appetising..yep and after lunch we went to fen the remainder of guan yue who ain't included in the full orchestra..although we only managed to teach them 11 bars and is super low efficiency, i still feel accomplished..haha and in the middle of the day someone called me (my friends will know..haha ask me about it) and i was kinda bad mood after that..but i think i managed to keep my spirit high for the whole of yesterday and i feel happier than a lot of people i think :)
today i had to go to school by 10 to meet up with the PW group before we hand in our I&R..and as usual i'm late..so i went to take photo with the scholars before we went to the library and wait for conrad..ya he's late..and the lib was so crowded with people i suspect the entire j1 is inside..blah blah blah..gladys filed everything and paginate the whole file and we are the first few to hand in the file :) haha ya after that went TM long johns eat lunch with val and marcus (actually is i tagged along lol) and saw sab there..almost laughed my head off during the meal but it kinda liften up my mood for the things to come in the afternoon..then me and val went to take mrt after we finished our meal (marcus left earlier for dental) and i saw one of the shengs guy from east zone..ya blah blah blah..then i came back home after sitting in a bus and transfering bus for around 1.5 hours..yes val i took bus home in the end haha :D
although the prospect of certain things is clear in my view and i expected it to happen with a unaffected heart, when it actually happened, i just lose my grip on myself..felt terrible..and i tot i won't cry but that is what i did..i procrastinate, being lazy for all my life, putting wrong priority, and in the end i regret..is there any use? i doubt not seriously..what's the use of education? and i ans for the future after 1 min of uneasy silence..
for the future..for MY future..i shall change :)
tired inside and out..but tt's how everyone will feel anyway..so i shall strive on? :)
tml's crash of schedules again..wonder what i will do in the end..i don't plan now cuz whatever i plan won't come true..so i might as well let it be..haha
thanks val for being so concerned..and the offer of your ezlink haha :)
shall end here now..cya!
*i think this post a bit jumbled up here and there and it doesn't flow..but i dun noe how to put it clear w/o being so straight forward so..haha paiseh lah!