hey..
lol getting all confused over the jae application..trying to appeal in tj thru co cuz my mum say can give up scholarship if i can get to better schs..but when i get home and talk to her the version changed to can give up the scholarship if we dun need to pay (much)..lol and now after i asked i need to pay >$2000 if i want to terminate it..which means i dun even need to tink of giving up scholarship..which means i dun need to appeal anymore cuz i can't go to tj even if i appealed in cuz they dun allow that..which means i'm gonna stuck to some jc that moe put me in, friendless again..haha if i wasn't given a chance to dream i wun be so sad..now that i dreamt and fell..i feel like crying..
anyway so..sorry to people that i had troubled and caused them false hope..haha no matter wat realli thanks..but then..i'm just assuming now that my mum wun allow me to give up the scholarship..maybe she'll agree to it den everything would change..no matter..
back to sat..haha only slpt for two hrs den i woke at 7 am to go back home and get ready for co..tot that i wun be awake cuz i'll fall asleep due to lack of slp..but i was feeling quite energetic when it was co so i still do quite ok..blah..blah..den went to tyf when it all started..feeling dizzy as if i just drunk when all i drank is 7-up..den after a while i just feel like vomitting..den very dizzy and sick..headache..blah..lol ya anyway managed it till 11 before saying gd bye to them and went home..can say i fell into slp instantly when i touch my pillow..haha
ok shall end here..dun have much update lah..for my jae application..shall just fill in anyhow since the decision dun lie with me anyway..haha..
今天我心情有一点怪怪
可是说不出到底为什么
好像有一点悲哀的徵兆
可是病因不知道
头上有橘色的加州阳光
我的口袋只有黑色的柳丁
我只有一个蓝色的感觉
不要问我为什么
很想说但又感觉没有话好说
我只恨我自己逃不出这监狱
或许我是个没有出息的小虫
不该一直作梦
你不是个英雄
叶子用坠落证明换季
可我昏昏沉沉没有办法醒
你愿意做个英雄
还是你会要放弃
天是亮的却布满乌云
所有焦距被闪光判了死刑
你想做什么英雄
我看你不过是佣兵
我只想哭只想哭只想哭
我只想哭只想哭只想哭
今天一起床我就头痛
不管吃了几瓶药都没有用
心情有一点莫名的焦躁
你离我越远越好
外面有橘色的加州阳光
我却躲在自己孤独的黑洞
我只有一个小小的要求
就是请你leave me alone
我只想哭只想哭只想哭
我只想哭只想哭只想哭