realised why i am always the backup of friends. cuz i'm nice. hahax dun tink tt i'm self boosting cuz a lot of ppl think of me tt way. i'm always a good alternative when it comes to friends. cuz when her friend is ap and ignore her, i'm always there to smile. i'm there to listen. isn't this a friend anyone will be looking for..?but dun be too close a friend with me, cuz i'll not treasure my close friends, so said by my another close friend. ok i shall not be chim. so here goes..
xiuyi, i tink i noe y u're turning moody. cuz of me..?sorry if i'm thinking too highly of myself..but if it is the case, i'll tell you y..cuz i'm a nicer friend than u are. sorry again. but see, u sometimes plays tantrum, and be ap..u change to moody all of a sudden..and so unpredictable. so when u're moody, carmen will come to me. see, cuz i'm always happy and high, and will never be bad mood. i'm a friend there when u need me. but as zy say again, i'm not a good close friend, cuz i dun treasure them. i suppose she's right, cuz i can't find anything to rebutt her. i dun pay much attend to her at least and occupied myself with all hello-ings with all the other ppl.
again, i ask myself, am i what i seemed to be..?as in i dun feel as happy as i seem, and no one can be happy all the time..and yet, i'm happy. all the time. y is it tt no one ask if i'm v exhausted from being happy all the time..?all they see is the happy me, my happy self, and said ok, doris is happy..but am i..?
conclusion: i'm not perfect, and not necessary happy when i'm smile..
do u actually understand me..?
cuz i dun realli do so..