hey!! hahax first of all..this's gonna be another short post..hahax cuz i dun realli haf much to say lah..just wanna "activate" my blog hahax..let's see..
oh carmen say today got news on dhp is it..?hahax my family dun watch tv one so i dunno..hahax but even if so if u missed it it wun show again rite..?a bit late lah this info..hahax but ya..just me trying to find sth to say..
hahax din do anything at all today again..dunno..dun seem to recover from the week yet..still feel ultra unenthu about sch work..hahax if u gonna force me i'm gonna hate u and hate the sch..so pls dun..hahax but tink i'll get better tml bah..since like i muz do the work tml and maybe i'll feel better after starting to do work..?hmmm ya anyway..maybe cuz i slp earlier than before..or just tt i develop this habit of reading textbook before slping..hahax ydae lie on my bed at around 8+ and i couldn't slp..even when i feel kinda exhausted..hahax..hai..and slp till today 9+..hahax so i supposed i got all the slp i need..but..still v tired out leh..how..?
hahax oh ya went to see them dazu ydae after my physics remedial..erm wait i shall talk about my physic remedial first..hahax wasn't aware tt we muz bring TYS anf physics textbook when we go to the remedial..so ms seah was totally fed up with all of us..a class of 38 and onli 2 brought the materials..so u can guess how steamed she was..ya and it's the first time she flared up form my impression of her..and tot she was near the verge of crying when she scolded us..felt a bit sorry for her at tt instant..with all her effort gone wasted and no one appreciating her effort lah..and supposed she noe tt cuz she passed down the name list and ask whoever wanna opt out of her class to cancel their name and sign against it..den like..pls lah we were all standing up and stuff and as if anyone would dare to actually sign it loh..even if they long for tt chance to..we still like have 1/2 more yr to be taught by her..hahax was surprised when someone signed it..but later realise tt he's just signing for attendance..anyway ya the lesson start at 1 and supposed to end at 3..den in the end she scold us for 1/2hr and tell us to stand till 3..den she went off to the office..the time was approaching 2+ den we were all thinking she's realli gonna let us stand till 3..without work to do and wasting our time..but she came back at around 215 den printed worksheets for us to do..ya den doing and going thru the worksheets..den ended the class at 315++ like tt..
yep den went to dazu after tt..listened to their dazu without much expectation cuz as everyone was saying..or at least i heard..their standard was horrifying..like only dyb and dizi can "still be hear"..when u noe the standard of them is not realli TT good even with all those pros..hahax ya u all are pros lah..den ok ju song was still erm audible..?but tink i wasn't paying much attention cuz i dun even noe they switch to man jiang hong and onli realise tt when they reach the more recognisable part..hahax tink i'm just slow loh..erm ya bangdi not loud enuf..blah blah blah..and xindi solo was totally..haix wat can i say..?was tinking i suck at it and somehow the person who thought he's the BEST is WORST than me..sincerely brian can play better lah..but knowing him as much as i do i suppose he wun specially fight for it..cuz he's respectful and noe tt seniors come first..but if he fights for it..i shall see how he fights for it and maybe support him..?hahax but not if he's arrogant and stuff..hahax oh ya and take note the solo's just merely one sentence, simple notes, and he can't play it well..wat can i say..?dun even noe how he got a 99 for his kaoji..supposed he felt relax tt we are gone and he face no threat..?tt's y he show his true skill and make our glasses all almost broke out of shock..hahax not tt we expect anything from him..but just tt he perform much worse than we had already degraded him to be..hmmm..
hahax ok i shall correct my first statement..this is not a short entry..hahax dunno lah juxt now was lost for words and now suddenly have so much to say..think i suppressed this too hard liao..oh anyway dunno leh..was picking on the chuida performance as wat i heard from wat sophia recorded by her phone..but as zy say..maybe i'm just trying to find fault at them..?cuz everyone say they're up to standard and nice..?haix maybe i'm just red to see tt they performing without the involvement of myself..but supposed i'll get better..?after all this wun be the last time they're performing without me..just imagine next yr we will be watching them perform..hahax tink i'm not tt detached with them after all..cuz last week..?dunno when mon fenzu before laoshi came i actualli stayed back..ok it's already without connection at tt time..but just wanna let myself be involved once more..?hahax not quite sure too..haix..ya was thus feeling sad when i hand the dizis one by one back to laoshi..and tada our ties are officially broken..hahax obviously i dun hope so lah..but..we shall see how lah..haix..feeling unstable..
hahax and i muz self reflect..just realise tt i'm realli saying more than wat i'm doing leh..hahax told myself to work harder and i spent today wasted..promised to practise dizi and i din touch it after the last performance..blah blah blah..and other things lah..tink i expect much more than i give..and not satisfy with wat i deserve with my little contribution..
bleah!! hahax shall end here..later i spill everything out and make everyone unhappy..hahax oh ya btw..[here i go again..haix] guess wat! cuz i dun realli get to use the com tt often..den i wrote down my feelings in a book!! hahax not diary cuz i dun write daily..just when i feel extremely sad and depressed..cuz i'll feel better when i let it out rite..?as everyone say..burden shared is burden halved..even if no other party is involved it's always better to write it out! hahax might update the post on the net..but definitely not on this web..bleah! to keep u all suspended mah..hahax kz this shall be realli the end of the "short" post le..hahax
till next time!!
we shall meet again!