haha nothing much realli..jux tt now i got the com to myself finally..with my sis went for tuition hahax..hmm..listening to xingkong and tianwen..realli brought back the memories of tt day..tink the feelings' fading..?but i shall rmb it..hahax tink co had became much a passion instead of wat i tot a burden in the lower sec..cuz of all those involvement eveything..now cum to realise it..actually i enjoyed every practice altho there are always ups and lows..and dun realli tink..as everyone emphasize..tt i'll feel the same in other sch even if i manage to get to vj and under the baton of quek..cuz it's jux diff..without all the atmophere and the LT..hahax wow tink i'll realli miss everything here..haix y am i bothering about these kind of things now when i haven't even begin to study for my o's..?
was reading one of the scholar's blog..den realise tt actually by her definition i'm realli..nothing..ppl get a2 stiu not happy..and i'm glad enuf to get a c6..wat kind of scholar am i lah..suppose i'm those kind who will be stepped underneath them lyk stepping stones and stuff..and ppl say she determine to get 9 a1..and i was lyk..ok..so i shall set my target at 10 a1s loh..cuz i haf to fight with them to get a place in the gd schs..suppose if i get 6 a1 i'll stiu go to sth lyk serangoon..?their system sucks lah..haix or is it jux tt i cant be up to their standrad tt's y i feel they sux..?hahax nvm..i'm turning vulgar..
the dsa thing realli turning up the heat leh..cuz lyk EVERYONE practically is applying for tt..asking for testi frm tchrs blah..hahax and all i can do is to look frm the side..accompany them to look for tchr..and reply "i din apply" when they happen to ask mi wat i wan..actually wanted to apply lah..and i got all the forms ready..den lyk the rule and regulation say scholars cannot apply..so i went asking ms chia if can apply..den she say muz ask the moe..which lyk..i'm telling the moe straight tt i wan to apply..?! den it's lyk i dun realli wan already..den summore lu say all those discouraging things tt'll desuade everyone frm applying..u shld realli listen to her tok..wat "6 to 7 marks stiu can consider applying..if u get 15 u tink they'll select u meh? dun be too stupid to tink tt u can get in with ur special talent..wat talent u haf lah..dun tink ur talent can get u anywhere..it's jux a waste of time and effort..u wun get in with ur talent and a "high" mark.." all tt's stuff's gonna make u boil..and she say lyk one or two days ago..?wow lyk we din fill in the form asked all the tchrs already lyk tt..and u wan us to jux let it go lyk tt..anyway her words totally extinguished tt want to apply le..cuz if i ask for my cca record and my cip record she'll say things lyk u tink u can get in arh u study harder lah dun daydream blah blah blah..cuz i'm the 1 of the 3 of her students who score higher than 20..aww so sad
hahax ok nvm dun realli understand wat i'm writing too..realise my eng deproving..argh!! oh ya did i say tt i wrote yet another letter to tjf for reflection..?and i suppose i'll haf to sing again tml cuz i din hand in the test paper signature hahax..hmmm wish not lah..i'm bad enuf tt day with all tt out of tune..eeiiikkk..
lala i discover i v ap these few days..realli..cuz i dun realli feel lyk saying hi to ppl most of the time..den keep on rebutting with annoyed tone..den was not being considerate..haix wat happened to mi..? messed up..anyway tml spring cleaning..hahax and i'm ap enuf not to plan to bring rag tml..since i'm gonna be nice enuf to wear pe..hahax ok tt's lame lah nvm..
ok tink i shall end here le..hahax shall wait for nxt time..cyz~