...dunno y everytime after reading [xxxx]'s blog i'll think a lot..not tt i dun now lolx..but realli..she haf questions and problems tt i tink we haf all ignored..tried to ignore..or chose to ignore..i'm a strange person who rather throw away all my prob than to face it..cuz i noe facing it i'll not live..hahax ok shall not get too down on the mood..i'm not suppose to expose my negative feeling here hahax..
realli lah..i dunno..sec3 haf a lot of prob tt had been there all the while..and it's jux tt now tt we're forced to face it we began to realise tt by our own delaying the prob grew large..sum ppl's ego grew uncontrolly and dun give a damn about wat we do or say to them..and the other prob grew so large tt it's realli either the person realise it himself/herself we could not help them..it lie within inside the brain and mind..there's no cure there..we're not phychologists..so as i say..we realli haf to live with it..or u rather wanna try and fail terribly..?i've failed enuf and is not going to try..call me selfish..
ok shall not complain..hahax thurs's our interclass..and sumhow i moved up frm reserve to in the team itself..but tink it got a lot of ppl unhappy..?and dunno leh..tt time assembly say organising this kind of interclass can foster sch spirit..and erm sorry lah i cant see tt..i onli see ppl pushing each other in the courts and fields and swearing at each other and staring at each other when the opposing team walk past..well can i say tt it breaks class spirit and sch one as well..these few days i realli see a lot of anger in a lot of ppl lah..ok hu wans to be a loser rite..
hmmm..all the mark sheets being passed round to sign..and erm..not gd..i'm always at the base..ok i noe u'll tell mi it's expected of mi cuz i din study and blah..and i'm not going to change myself because i need the marks..and even if i change u'll continue in ur own perspective tt i'm lazy and gd for nth..i can see ur expression if i score higher than u in any test now..wat's mi rite..hu study in the morning on the test day and u weeks b4..?of course i deserve a mark lower than u..anyway thanks for the word of encouragement when i failed my tests..it help..on tt moment..realli..no sacarsm..but i realli haf to say..it was oso partially becuz of ur words tt i'm not studying now..everytime i want to conc on studying u'll say to the others tt this person here dun study oso can pass one..blah blah blah..ok u may not see my pt..but it dun feel gd when even ur friend thinks tt u're not capable..not tt u din give me encouragement..juz tt ur discouragement haf a bigger effect on mi..ok maybe i'm jux finding excuses for myself again..as u noe..
argh!! ok i shall not conplain le lah..haix..ok hahax oh ya tink my plan to turn over a new leaf failed..so i shall blog again..hahax erm ok lah these few days din blog's becuz i dun feel lyk..
hahax i gtg liao..cya den..when i feel lyk it :P
it feel gd to be ap..realli