March 31, 2005

hey..hahax trying out the blogging system at friendster..but guess i'll jux stick to here..no pt repeating the same thing at two areas to mi..lolx..
anyway my mood swings today..down first thing in the morning..tink i stiu can't get over last nite's thing..stiu dun wanna tok to my sis..bet i'm the onli one tt's affected anyway..nvm i shall suffer under my own ap-ness..ya den at the bus stop quite happy le..den dunno y go to flag rising got irritated..and so it go down down down again..till end of sch..go down again..den up..den down..den up..so currently i'm feeling quitenumb now..dun even noe wat am i feelin or wat shld i feel..nvm..
my sis got high fever today..den the sch called to ask her family mem to go and fetch her..who are us..anyway sms-ed by my sis about tt while i having lessons..and ok i STIU can't get over the anger against her yet so i flared up again..wat does she haf the right to tell mi to things tt she dun wan to do..she got lessons i dun haf hor..ok it seem quite unreasonable i noe..anyway in the end i stiu agreed to fetch my sis..and IN THE END i went there..and my sis's already fetched by my father..SO..nvm and no i dun feel angry..i felt quite humorous actually..sumhow..so i went back home..and been online till now..reading thru ppl's blog..
watched the birth process bio show..the whole class went woo and arhhh at the clips not bcuz of the content..but bcuz the clips are very short..we had in mind to spend away the double periods of bio on tt earlier..anyway ya the content wasn't realli nice lah..tho now i noe tt b4 24wks we're transparent..can see all those blood vessels going in our body..den cannot hear anything one..anyway yep in the end we managed to spent away the periods on tt..hahax felt us quite pro actually..
hmmm..today on the bus i slp for lyk two bus stops..due to the congestion at the road junction..woke up by tt man at the first one..shouting wat move in move in extremely loud..i'm being shocked till wake up lah..den i slp again with my head facing front..den suddenly i'm reminded of the m'sia trip feeling for tt one bus stop..and it's enuf for mi to miss it..again..hahax dunno if i stiu haf the chance since now got first three months..my chance of succeeding in persuading my mum's getting slimmer..haix..
ya the plant tt we planted on fri grew till now lyk 10.5+ cm le..v nice..it's honeydew hahax..wish it can survive till mon thru the lack of space and soil in the plastic container..
hahax yah!was watching the pri sch co syf 2000 vcd jux now..saw sophia in it..with two pony tails at the side and swaying her head sideways with the rhythm and smiling to the conductor..hahax she's cute in it..and now stiu is lah:P hahax ya i saw sharon oso..she's SOOOOOO pretty lah..and she's the onli one hu din realli change in the face cuz i can regconise her easily..hahax wow..ya saw rit[or hu..?] in konghwa..he blew the solo for the com song rite..hahax den i oso saw peifen and junda..everyone are realli pewny..hahax anyway now i wonder y our band dun haf any cd le..it's lyk my onli syf in pri sch oso..sophia got a cd of her own and i dun haf..haix v sad leh..
erm back to sch..today supposed to run 2.4 den as usual mi and zy planned to slack for 5 rounds b4 joining th rest to finish the run..after we ran one round at the start of the second round i fell down..actually..realli amazing..cuz my palms din get injuried and my knee din get injuried..my side of the hand lyk the part ur hand will rest on when u write is injuried..dun ask mi how i do it but onli rmb myself fell down and rolled for 1 or 2 rounds..according to zy i rolled lyk how u're supposed to roll when ur body's on fire..so..shld i say i'm lucky..?
yep i muz confess one thing..i'm very irritable today..and esp to zy..i dunno..suddenly realise tt i dunno her and she dunno mi all of a sudden..den lyk bu shuang with her cuz i feel tt she's all over mi..tink it began ydae when i looked at the plant after she look or i jux look at the plant and did sum loosening of the soil den she tell mi to stop tt and go down fo recess..but i continued anyway..den she shouted into my ear and walked out of the classrm..den after i done with the plant i walked out..and catched up with her..acti i was almost done with the plant le..anyway yep..dunno..tink my mind realli changing..if it was the normal mi i wun haf mind..but now i mind..this isn't a gd sight..and no gd for anyone..anyway ya so today all of a sudden i'm picking on her privately..dunno..lyk dun realli wanna reply her question..dun realli wanna eat with her..dun wanna realli have contact with her at all..let myself cool down..but as usual i did every dun realli wan..it's a part of mi tt's going against this type of thing but the other side of mi tell mi to stay how i was..dunno..suddenly think tt she's attn seeking and wanna be the centre of attn..which i kinda dread all of a sudden..realli hate this mi now..can i ever change back...?i can't achieve happiness by telling myself tt i'm happy now anymore..i feel nei jiu about everything i've done today and ydae..but i can't bring myself to stop frm further destruction..wishing tt sumhow it'll detruct mi too..once and for all...

ok tink tt's all..