haha see i'm cuming online everyday now..haix not a gd sign rite..but i suppose tt wun happen if i tell my mum..lolx..
26/2--haf u ever feel tt u dun belong anywhere?it's lyk no one no where will accept hu u r and nobody feels tt u're rite to tink tt way..anyway today's quite ok lah..made confessions to zy hahax..tho she's not realli happi about wat i confess i tink..
cuz u're not supposed to..helplessness overcums mi..but no one notice..anything..but nvm..we've got to live with it rite..hahax ya standing board jump today was disastrous loh..nearly cant pass 150cm..dunno wat happened..hahax ya this entry a bit luan hor..?hahax paiseh..acti dunno wat to say..shall try squeezing out sth hahax..
let's see..hahax ya 2 days to gongyan..quite scared leh..today the 'test' think i blow wrong alot of notes..terrible loh..will die one..muz train harder tmr..hahax best wishes to all of u..
u noe falling frm a 4-storey high building dun kill u..it jux paralyst u and make u feel the pain..4eva...haix dun realli bother about how i survived thru one and yet another co prac..they say not gd putting in too much effort in cca..muz prioritise..but den..nvm hahax ya so now i muz put more time into studies le..can't disappoint..myself!:)
haix now problems here problems there i dunno how le..tink muz deal with tt one on studies first rite..hahax ya made up my mind to study for physics during the trip le..hahax..shall gambatei..
ppl say tt i give up on 'em..but den now i realise tt it's not.it's jux tt i give up on myself..so now everything dun matter anymore..hahax dunno gd or bad..nowadays i tink my 'senile' become v v v cham..cuz now i realli dun rmb wat i wan to say even the gap of thinking it and saying out's jux lyk..30sec...?die loh..budden maybe it's gd cuz now den i wun rmb wat everyone say to mi and i can lead a happy life..budden lyk tt later ppl might say wat i v bu zhi hui gai lolx..very contradicting..
and i actually feel beta after i realise tt..after struggles and struggles i realise tt i'm not there to change anything..and tt wun bother mi tt much now..nth bothers now..hahax ya and i realise tt i'm so pro tt i can make ppl and myself laugh while i cry..amazing huh..hahax crying and laughing at the same time..ya btw..dunno y bcum v weak these days..think lyk averagely i cry once every two day lyk tt..not tt kind of release watsoever sorrow u haf kind..jux..erm sobx..?hahax no sound tt kind..v pro leh..hahax nvm i noe i v lame hahax..
it's painful to see the gang tt u went out with last time suddenly not toking to u and yes..u becum a loner..it's hurting mi..badly..erm..ok i tink this entry v long le rite..hahax so i shall end here..maybe i wun be visiting so often le..we shall see kz..hahax so..cya~:)