met with jacob they all at night on the 10th..the meet-up was fun :) but some how the atmosphere kinda become quite sad at night when everyone started to go separate ways..boo! all the best to all the guys getting enlisted for jan :)
life is fair i guess..been happy for the whole day yesterday did not prevent me from what happened last night..oh well i shall let bygones be bygones..nothing can change anyway..
today is another day at work (without zy)..my sense of security is failing me..let me have what power it takes to remain calm and unaffected for the day..
wondered if it'd be better if i go overseas to study..but given what i gave for my studies for the past 2 years, the chance of getting the psc scholarship is like, near zero. aka most prob i'll stay in singapore and study a course that i don't really like and waste my life away..such a bright scenario >.< no i'm not getting depressed. no i am not feeling sad. just that suddenly i realise seriously for real that life is kinda always the opposite of what we want it to be (at least for me) and some times (or rather, most of the times) i won't get as badly hurt if i just accept whatever comes..
the hole in my heart is expanding..but i'll stop bleeding soon and let numbness take over me. don't worry :)
P.S. haiya actually i thought i'd give a brighter post today to cheer the atmosphere up a bit but failed..nvm..anyway i'm really okay :) i'm ok