i'm bored. with everything. again.
LOL i think this kind of feeling always pop up out of nowhere once in a while, and i'm just experiencing it again now. was finding jobs energetically for the past few days, and now i don't even feel like answering any calls; the last paper is tomorrow, and now i began to think that maybe i should try harder for my results, which is, very late; i feel like deleting all my messages in my inbox but no, i need to keep the good lucks..LOL i'm sooooo..i dunno?
wondering if we scored everything U, then what will we see on the cert? because according to the exam books if the subject is ungraded it won't be reflected on the cert..so if everything is a U we'll receive a blank paper? cool..
and whenever i say that, my sis will go on saying that i won't have results that bad. but seriously, i'm still on the com even though it's my A's, and i'm wasting my time away like no body's business (yah it's no body's business actually) so i guess i would deserve it when it really come back like that? then again, apparently i'm kidding myself when i say that i don't care what is reflected on my cert, because actually i know that i do. whatever.
was wondering again, you know, when i say "you know" on my blog, who actually am i refering to? as in, it's supposed to be a public journal right?so who is the "you" i am refering to?
there is a idiom that says "if you risk nothing, you risk anything" so actually saying that it is better to risk something of your choice than have it decided for you because you just wanted to keep everything selfishly? i supposed it is true but what if i want to risk everything?haha i'm thinking too far again..but seriously, i think without hope to begin with is better than failing after hoping for anything. that's my philosophy now, and i'm not wishing anything so that if the worst really happen, it'll not appear to be so bad..crooked?ya i guess my mind is. or just that i am protecting myself so i'm always embracing myself for the inevitable fall that is going to come someday. embracing the idea of failing, so i won't feel that i failed when i actually do.
LOL can you believe this is all the random thoughts i generated just on a bus trip home? i think my brain works miracles when it comes to rubbish..haha bleah i guess this entry is too like me to be nice..haha maybe i'll delete this? hmmm..maybe not cause i'm too lazy to cover up.
GOOD LUCK for people having paper, going to have paper, and ENJOY for people who finished their exams or do not have exams to begin with..lol
i'm off to hibernation..