4 more days to SYF...
quite a number of things happened during the week but since it's happened so long ago i'd not blog about it anymore..and it's not as if i remember much of the details anyway..
stress from school works and CO is increasing..and somehow i am not that tolerant about stress anymore..nearly broke down yesterday night LOL..but i'm glad to say i still have a certain extend of self-control :)
it might seem trivial to a lot of people but i think i am flunking my tests and that matters to me unlike common beliefs..and although i have been giving the worst scenario to most people when they ask about my results and the scholarship, i wish it not to happen after all. i need to bank my hopes on all my tests coming up, with what i did for my results during block test. but apparently, everything bad that i wish in my heart not to happen is happening..
about CO..i don't know what to say anymore but making promises that might be empty to work harder with the little time i have? I wish i am not the one (or the only one) that screw up the competition on the day itself..not with all the hardwork that i believe myself to have put in..then again..nothing happens as i wish them to..
sometimes i feel it's best not to think anything at all 'cause what i assume will happen won't happen, and whatever i dread to happen will definitely happen..it might be just my mind but there are too many instances that i was praying to myself not to let something happen and it still happen..or times when i planned ahead and everything turn out the way i did not plan it to be..that i decided to think of most of the things that i dread happening because then i know it won't happen..psycho? i think so too..
i guess i am off to study then.. :)