hey..wanted to update so many time this week but just dun have the mood..lol was hogging on to the com for almost a week now whenever i came home earlier than the rest..and my dad finally reached the limit and burst out scolding us last night..so as you can see (erm dun tink u can) i'm NOT watching kim sam soon NOT playing harvest moon..well and NOT doing any homework..yet..
wed was the last CO prac for us before CCA stand down(or sth?) for promos..ttk came and our shoes was lined up neatly and we greeted guo lao shi when he came in..yep was playing a new song so basically i made alot of mistakes..den after ttk "listened" to the song we played there was kinda a break and ttk saw me (i think he saw me from the start but not really sure..for a moment was quite scared that i'm no longer rmbed..) and i was waving to him den he come over and put his hand on my head and pinch my nose and ask "have you made your visa?" lol ok to me that was comical lah..and because i can't turn i din even get to look at his expression..lol anyway he pulled on jenny's pony tail while we were playing the song (which is before the break) and after the break he left le..then after that we practised another new song before the prac ends..oh it's guo's last day too..den near the end after we cut and ate the "specially prepared" cake i was looking and looking and wondering if i shld bid him a proper goodbye since after all he's been my conductor for almost 3yrs le..yep in the very end i did..haha and i'm glad i did cuz or else i think i'd probably have another regret in my heart..
today went to redhills to conduct an interview with MINDS personnel for PW..the guy (actually..it was an old man) talked for more than 1 hr..and in the end he asked us to send our questions to him via email..lol i tink he knows we haven't really do enough research to handle him on the spot..then in the process he told us there was a grp of RJ and HC before us..and we were thinking that they must have came prepared..but nvm..yep well so for now we have one hopefully-useful interview for our WR..yay!
was thinking quite alot this few days (ok actually is today) and i was feeling totally down from the very morning today..or not very down but more of fluctuating..at a large degree..lol was thinking of the past..the present..and the future..lala dun ask me when i became so philosophical cuz i dun really know too:P
wondering if i shld go up to my pri sch friends and say hi do you recognise me..but after so long..the timid side get better hold of me..tho i know if they say tt to me i'd feel more happy than shock but i just couldn't really bring myself enough courage for that..so..i shall just let matters pass? since they're doing so well in studies and i'm kinda at the bottom..rah i'm feeling sad..with myself..
time flies actually rite? 5 more weeks to promos..and friendships growing more distant..or rather i'm growing more distant to them..most things that have happened to my very best friend i am ignorant of..and when she's feeling down..she din try to talk to me..then again..i din thought of talking to anyone about my problem too..was just staring into space..and hope they would just go away..i think i am partially responsible for things that luckily did not happened..she said before and yet i dismiss it quite briefly..maybe i am the one who is not paying enough attention to any of my friends?
tml going to NLB to study cum research with zhuangyuan..haha wish we can catch up with times and well..do our homework too..lol
think i am very fortunate to have a lot of caring friends..i really hope i can make you feel fortunate too cuz i wanna be a caring friend to my friends..
anyway just as an add on..
i know everyone is under alot of stress and i know everyone seem so unavailable to everyone to their problems now that we are all in different schools..but from now on..i'll try to always be there? i can't be there during lessons time but i'll always be there when i'm awake and not having lessons..so really..i dun want to lose any friendships..anymore...there are times when we feel the world is dark and we could barely see the road ahead..but no matter..we will still find our way through every single obstacle and one day i believe we will reach our goals..