February 05, 2006

i should not feel the way i'm feeling.
i should not feel the way i'm feeling.

i have no power over anything.
i have no power over anything.

i'm born loser, and should stay the way i am.
i'm a born loser, and should stay the way i am.

i'm doing somthing that i should not do.
i'm doing something that i should not do.

i should be punished.
i should be punished.

i deserve it and don't try to change it.
i deserve it and don't try to change it.

i deserved it.
i deserved it.
i deserved it.
i deserved it.
i deserved it.

trying to be who i am not,
trying to be what i am not,
trying to do something that i do not have the right to,
trying to make everything go my way,
trying to be a goody goody but with a bad heart,
trying to pretend to be good when i'm bad,
trying to be someone that i should not dream of becoming.

i deserved it.