holy sh*t i am so weak nowadays..feel so terrible and so vulnerable suddenly..heard them cheering cball ydae while i was having geog remedial..den i was suddenly dragged into this emptiness..like i'm not involved anymore..tt i do not haf any place at all in it..i felt i was telling a lie when i tell mrs chin tt i'm going for co after geog..cuz any means i'm of no use..feel like i'm totally detached from it..i no longer share the same memory as the rest..felt like an intruder when i went to look for xiuyi and carmen..everyone's playing so happily all along and i came butting in all of a sudden..felt tt i shld not went for the last hr of kangle at all..since i was feeling sad and can only be a wet blanket to everyone..was toking and toking to myself..i came is to enjoy..and not to spoil the mood..and suddenly i feel no use of soaking myself inside sorrow cuz i deserved no right to spoil anything for anyone..maybe i was too sensitive..the moment i managed to persuade myself to be happy..xiuyi suddenly turned foul mood..is it my fault..?i shouldn't have been even there cuz i spoil the mood of everyone..so conclusion for the day: i should not have went for co ydae..at all
expressionless is my expression