hey!! haha rise and shine today in the early morning!! lolx i slept at 4 ydae wor..haha was tinking of continue sleeping just now when the alarm ring..but den..hahax anyway 5 hrs enuf lah hor..heex.. like ydae sleep for almost 12 le..lalala..
nth much lah except went to lib ydae with all my sis w/o the second one..went a bit crazy in the lib..running around and stuff..haha actually din even wanna go out cuz i lazy lolx..anyway yep so i went out ydae with my family..lalala
ok the main topic for this entry is my dreams!! haha had quite a few every now and den but always cannot rmb no matter how hard i tried or how impt i had tot in the dream tt the dream is and i shld try my best to rmb..but these few days i rmbed them..haha actually i tink the dreams got me worried lah..tt's y rmbed them..anyway the time exactly for the dreams was the day b4 ydae..haha erm anyway..yep i rmbed two lah..actually got three but one cannot say :P haha so..yep the first one i dunno y lah was in a shop den was toking with carmen ruth justine and xiuyi..den sudden tink was like asking if anyone got anything for remembrance of the china and malaysia trips..den i was like no..only my sch tie..cuz i lost my co badge once after coming back from china and once after coming back from malaysia, lost my sch badge after coming back from china, lost my hp which last me the two trips, together with all those keychains i bought in malaysia..so left with practically nth lah..den i was like oh shit where's my tie cuz earlier b4 tt i took off my tie and jux put it somewhere..den we started searching for it and the owner of the shop took out all the ties tt we all took off earlier one..everyone's but mine..den i rmbed myself started crying v pitifully while saying the tie v impt cuz it's the only thing tt i haf for my memory of co..blah..
hahax when i woke up i immediately went to find my tie and found it missing..haha was damn scared lah..if my dreams come true like the other times..lucky it turn out to be my sis never took out from my bag b4 using it..haha
den the other dream's about i being late for sch..or rather..my sis being late for sch..tink it was morning and we were running late..den we were running down the stairs when i realise i forgot to bring a very impt consent form..den my sis ran up again to help me take while i cont'd running to the bus stop..anyway it appear tt i manage to catch the bus and went to sch jux in time for flag rising..den i was waiting and waiting for my sis to come cuz she's llate..den saw her coming in the taxi with my mum..haha anyway she pass the form to me den the dream finish le..
hmmm the two dreams a bit trivial rite..haha dunno leh dunno y i had the second dream but the first one kinda depicts wat i'm currently feeling..?haha was reading thru the postcards i had received..was wondering hoe much some of us had changed..whom included me lolx..yep dunno leh it's hard not for anyone to change but sometimes and most of the times u'd rather it not to change after it has been changed eh..?haha understand wat i mean..?lala this shows tt life is not realli based on us and we alone but all the friends u have over time and ur attitude towards life..i'd really wish to have friends who is supportive and encourage me (the right way) and well..understanding..and i supposed these criterias are all the basics of friends rite..of everyone..because this someone had been supportive and encouraged u and understood u tt's y u had became a friend of theirs..but sometimes it seems tt people do change and the once most understanding and encouraging friend of urs might become the one who discourage u most and distort ur true feelings with the title of knowing u best..haha ok it applies to all cases mostly and so not mine alone..and basically i tink i've got some friends who fits the basic criterias rather well and realli shared my troubles..but as usual there was one or two whom had turned sour and dun realli understand me anymore..dunno leh maybe it was jux me but a lot of times i realise we no longer could talk cuz she keep on tinking tt i tink otherwise..and since she was the one who understood me most she left me with nth to say..maybe i appear tt to most of the people so..haha anyway this friend i still haf..jux tt i dun confide in her tt much anymore..hahax and rest assured..i tink the ppl who reads my blog will not be the one who i mentioned..as in i dun tink she'll read my blog lah so :)
hmmm i tink a lot of ppl turn to their friends in seek of some understandings bah..but mostly couldn't find..and so the friendship usually stay superficially..haha duno lah tink i'm not realli in the stand to say about ppl cuz i am not one who can realli understand any..maybe i tried not hard enuf or maybe i din even try..haha but i tink it feels beta to haf someone to know ur problem at least..even if the person could not be able to share ur burden and seek for solution with u..as in u'll noe tt this person noe how u feel and u no longer suffer on ur own or sth..? dunno lah cuz tink i was confide in last time..but i realli din manage to offer solutions to my friends' prob so in the end they stop finding me and i became the last one to noe about probs..haha is this a sad thing..?i dunno leh..cuz actually if they can find solution as i tink they had elsewhere i tink it's ok bah..as in as long as they're happy..haha same case for me own right.. dunno lah..lolx anyway i suffer from autism mah..so i can't bring solutions and can't bring myself to tell my probs nowadays cuz i'm introverted..haha actually i tink mr siva's comment quite true leh..cuz the quiz i took all say i'm introverted so i guess i am..?as he said and of which i objected with..?haha dunno lah but realli compare me with last time i am now like hell lot more active than last time..?erm like i behave how i look like when u first see me in pri sch and i'm behaving totally crazy nowadays..?ok lah maybe i din realli got out tt much after all but..haha i've tried so i'm not tt introverted kz..can't help keeping things to myself cuz i'm born autistic..?lolx and i've already tried to got most of my mind out le loh..haix..haha lala tink i've realli changed lah..jux tt i'm more out but dunno is it positive or negative change..cuz now according to mr quek i became more rude but erm..hey i smile more now..?haha nvm human is a complex organism..lalala and the views of diff ppl are even more complex..so i shall not kill too much brain cells early in the morning..and stop tink about all tt..haha oh ya to end this entry i shall write down my hw for this hols kz..?haha
1. e maths VS past yr paper
2. a maths VS past yr paper
3. chem prelim paper (3 sets)
4. english newspaper articles review(4)
5. chi compo
6. outside sch chi past yr paper
7. chi newspaper article review
8. physics reflection
9. chem remedial worksheet
10. and all those assessments tt i din do in the past..
haha and i realli realli realli wish tt i can finish all my homework before the holiday ends..haha i shall end here den..lolx i wrote for 1+ hr..can't believe..haha