lolx heex i feel happy~~hahax ok at least i'm..since after afternoon lessons today..hahax dunno leh..tink all the ppl studying and working hard for tml's maths test den i get agitated..?can u imagine..?
zy and
jj actually study in sch lah..when
zy was lyk falling asleep during bio lesson..?i dunno how much she study at home but dun tink see her tt hardworking in sch b4..hahax anyway i was laughing and joking blah..trying to keep them frm their works muahahahax..yep den in the end everyone jux continue their work and ignored mi..so i in the end went home with
zhaorui..hahax cuz i was bothering zr when she decide to settle down nad do sum work while waiting for
jj..and apparently i disturbed her~successfully~~hahax she say she cant concentrate in sch oso lah..hahax yep so went back after finding
sophia in co rm..hahax den blah blah blah..den i'm back home! hahax after doing sum shopping for my sis..hahax suppose i look funny lah..in uniform and with two hands full of those cold storage bags hahax..anyway yep cum back home..dennow laid out my maths le..after entering my entry i'm gonna start work..lolx i was almost touched by myself lah..i the slacking person in 4h finally start work!!they shld realli open a champane or sth hahax..jk..anyway i called the telephone company le..and now everything is clear~hahax was getting so annoyed in the evening when my sis step in the house and the first word she say is "HAVE U CALLED?" den i was lyk not answering her..den she stomped off and starting scolding everything and everyone..wat loh..say wat wun let ppl step on her head again..i tink i rather say she resort to violence..say so nice..getting to be a more serious case than my dad le..really..and dunno hu on earth say she detestes him..and now she behaving even worse than the behaviours she hates..nvm i shan't bother..in a way i muz thank her cuz it's her tt i'm now getting trained to be more able to sustain my negative feelings..hahax oh ya this morning wasn't looking at anyone at all till to the bus stop..was lyk staring on the floor and stare..hahax avoid every chance of eyes contact!! i rock..heex..
dunno leh the tinking back of i actually was once upon a time so cheerful..gave mi hope..and now lyk when i'm feeling sad..[the rate of tt time appearing's getting more frequent..] i'd tink of tt fact and encouraged myself to be happier..hahax and till now stiu works..heex mi genius in finding these kind of thing:P ok so i shall give myself one more chance again and try to gain back wateva i try to push away..hahax and shall retain the hope of a threesome once more..so..sorry if i was v cold these two days or din even look at u..if u noticed it..but i doubt u will lah..hahax nvm..so give mi a chance kz..i shan't let anything spoil again..if it spoils..i shall be out permanently..?
oh ya..frm ydae onwards dunno wat's wrong with my left nostril..tink it's swollen and v pain even when i yawn lah..heex as i was suspecting to
shushan sumone might have punch mi while i slp..tt's y it's on my nose..hahax make sense..?if it's realli so den i noe hu did it le..she's the only one hu han threaten to do so and i believe tt she's capable too..hahax but shan't get too suspicious...
ha tell u..i'm confirmed tt i will get back to CO in jc..these two days was so bored lah..and lifeless..maybe it's cuz of my emotions maybe it's bcuz of the lack of music..?i noe sum ppl v happy tt lyk now finally dun haf co le can haf more time..but as u see and apparently i dun enjoy it at all..hahax i might haf complained when the practices was stretching too long..but if it was up to mi to chose i'd rather haf tt long practice than the whole afternoon free..so..hahax dun tink i can live with a music-less life:D
p.s. oh is the need to escape frm all the things now strong enuf for mi to attain excellent results..?cuz i stiu can't find my motivation..hahax not tt having it will help my studies but at least i'll noe y i shld study harder..instead jux aimlessly cuz it's a need to study at our age..get wat i mean..?hahax hmmm...