hey..jux came back frm syf..hahax erm ok after going for a supposedly gy dinner which onli the few of us turned up and the snrs that are supposed to cum din cum..onli
jieren came..yep anyway ya went to sch as usual..den went out b4 physics and went for CO..ok tink all of us v high today dunno y..dun exactly feel lyk we're going for syf lah..feel more lyk going for a outing or sth lolx..and i was totally hyper:P yep anyway after i put my stuff inLT went down the spiral staircase with
cephia..den saw the VJ ppl cuming out of the cab..den i spotted
stef and shouted her name..sumhow everyone turned in the direction and start laughing..so i jux went away lolx..stiu dunno y they laughed..anyway ya ate den rushed back up with
xiuyi after getting the stockings frm
shushan [heex thanks alot! love ya!] den
guolaoshi havent cum yet..so
kelvin ordered us to slp for 10mins..and as i was cooling down finally and start to settle down and slp
guolaoshi arrived..went thru the songs..tchrs came..went thru our mistakes..and off we go to SCH..while we're waiting outside the VIP rm we felt totally lyk going for a picnic with all our food and stuff..
giap seng even bought us bananas! hahax yep was munching and munching..until
kelvin tell us to get ready..den off we went to the tuning rm..den the syf..everything was ok..so after tt we went to pack our instruments..
ruth and
yingyu cried..den we went all moody..but after tt
mdm illyana let us watched rgs thru the telecomm..den went in and watched zhonghua..their smile..erm..shall not comment..anyway after their syf we went to sch..blah..yep we ban intruments and waited for the results in LT..hahax the tension was quite high..
vincent tell us a joke while the announcer crapped..yep anyway we got GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!!!hahax we were totally happy lah..started screaming and laughing and running round..hahax and cried..first time it's realli xi ji er qi..hahax dunno y cant recall feeling tt way when we got second for band in pri..hmm..hahax yep den went went for dinner..den now i'm home!!with feet tt's ready to cramp at any moment hahax..and two blisters..but it shld be a day i'll neva forget.. CO ROX MY LIFE!! how can anyone hate co lah sincerely..haix..ok tink tt's all for my recap..hahax
when mr siva wrote tt i'm an introvert in my report bk in sec2 i was totally angry with him..cuz if anyone noe mi since pri sch will noe how much i had changed to out-going..wanted to be able to socialise more with everyone since my pri sch end..cuz i wanted to start a new person in sec sch and dun be so lonely..anyway tink i improved quite a lot..at least i tink i improved on my shyness..anyway yep tt's y i was angry at his comment lah..i din believe tt i'm an introvert..until now..dunno leh realli dawn upon mi jux now tt maybe after all tt effort i tried to pull myself out frm my old self i din realli achieve much..cuz ppl dun feel wat i'm feeling..how to explain..it's lyk i was feeling extremely happy but ppl tink tt i'm numb..i feel sad ppl tink tt it's my normal style..but when i behave lyk normally they ask mi y i'm sad..cried and no one noticed..pain and no one noticed..not tt they shld anyway..but this shows tt ppl can't feel wat i'm feeling which means i keep my feelings so well concealed inside mi tt others cannot detect..which means i fits the introvert discription..which means mr siva is correct..and the fact tt i stiu bothers wat the other ppl might think if i react how i want to as how i feeling shows tt i'm not successful in my goal either..when kelvin announced tt we got gold with honours everyone broke out laughing and cheering and i was sitting in my seat..trying to suppress my sudden want of crying cuz i was tinking this is a joyous occasion and i shldn't cry..anyway i saw xiuyi they all crying and i lyk oh we can cry..?and i broke down..and my tears onli stayed in my eyes..hahax does tt means tt i dun feel as much as they do..?erm anyone get my pt anyway..?it's hard to explain..and i supposed anyone hu din experienced this b4 will not understand..y on earth ppl bother about how others reacts when we're showing wat we feel..?well nvm if u dun understand..and dun ask mi for explaination..i dunno..shall try to improve on myself..hahax..ok nvm mi dun bother..i'm fine:)..realli