April 19, 2005

hey..hahax ok i shall start with a recount of ydae..hmm..ydae was mon..den assembly went to audi to watch jing ju..dunno y now lyk assembly's becoming more "interesting" le..den after sch our class's supposed to go to career guidance session..but got co so i skipped it..tot got sophia and zy to pei mi..den hu noes they already went for tt wks ago..and i dunno a thing lah..haix was a bit startled for a moment..den heck care already..anyway they say it's a quiz..so even if i go alone wks later for make up it wun make much diff..hahax ok..ya den co..after co mi and xiuyi rush here rush there to photocopy the competition poem during the break..hahax the money's frm our own pocket leh..unless xiuyi decides to take it as gy fund..hahax..yep den 6pm went for rehearsal..hahax the red tie's totally erm..ok nvm i shall not comment on tt..ya the sch's totally the same as the stage in m'sia..cannot hear everyone else..den the suona sit at the other end and we lyk haf to strain our ears den hear a little bit..den can't hear xiuyi nor ruth nor rachel nor justine at the first go thru..felt so extra lah..dunno leh..tink shld be happy cuz it's the first time tt i can hear myself..?lolx jk..yep went thru the two songs LOTS of times..den went back to sch at 9..wanted to stay to watch MJ de..den ttk say we too tired muz go back..so the end of rehearsal..oh ya...a lot of snrs went to sch oso..hahax tho fewer than tt time rehearsal in hall..got mollie this time..sharon..and usual vj ppl..hmm..yi ting ming hao etc lolx..
hahax ya today din haf much happening lah..except tt i suspected myself to haf fever in the morning..hahax but tink is i too sensitive cuz now i'm perfectly alright hahax..den was resting as much as i can..which cuz my eyes to be super pain now..haix..hahax tml tml's tml got co..den fri's competition le...muz do the sch proud..tt time zy hear band got top 3 and she was saying next yr sch's niche will be band le..ok it's a bit duh but den it make sense..as in the sch will give them more money than co if we dun get the money+ gold with honours..hahax so muz jiayou loh:)


hahax juz wondering wat's the difference of giving up and giving in..?to mi it's all the same..giving up wat i dun deserve and give in to reality..no matter how u phrase it it juz ended at the same senario..maybe it shldn't even haf existed in the first place..the longer u hold on to sth u dun deserve the more pain everyone involved will get..but i stiu dun wanna give in nor give up..cuz if i give in or give up the onli one getting hurt would be mi..hahax i'm selfish..i dun wanna be a loner but everything it appeared to mi is making mi one..or it's jux tt i'm making them to make mi a loner..i see things too complicated and worry for thing there's nva existed and will neva happen..it makes mi unhappy and there's no one to blame for it but myself..dun wan to let go cannot let go..hu's to blame..?mi..myself..

hahax ok nvm can see i'm not making sense here..toking all those crap tt i will never experience..hahax ok lah..
haf a nice wk!