hey..hahax first thing first again..ha!ms seah finally called my mum i guess..so i tink later when she cum baq home i'll be scolded..so i tink i beta slp early so tt maybe maybe i can escape it...?haix feeling sad? now..dunno wat to do..today after sch mi acc zy walked to the 30 bus stop den i wait for 158 while she and kj went to the 196 bus stop for S&D..haix den ms seah cum to the bus stop and i tell u i pratically jumped up and stand out of the bus stop and let the poster block mi frm view..my heart was lyk thumping so hard..den it feel lyk a day passed b4 the 158 cum..and after i walked onto the bus i stiu dun dare to look at her direction..haix useless rite..?this is the real mi i guess..escape frm reality rather than facing it..
can't realli imagine b4 recess i was acti quite happy..erm ok VERY happy cuz we went to com lab for eng..and as usual almost the whole class was going blog and blah..only a few is doing the essay tt we're supposed to do..anyway erm..not was not the real reason y i'm so happy lah..hahax part of it yes..but i shan't say more:P
ya den recess went to find ms seah..cuz i'm supposed to get my pre-test paper frm her..and guess wat..i scored 11/27..which is 41%..tink i hopeless le..i'm the only hu failed the pre-test and sophia got 89% loh..haix..den later on the test i got weird weird ans..realli v weird..suppose i'll fail again..which total up my score lyk failing 3/5 of all the test for this sem:X
anyway back to recess..after finding ms seah mi and zy walked along the corridor of staffroom 1..den luguixia was outside..when we walked past she spotted mi and ask wat's wrong with my house no cuz no one ans the phone and ms seah cant contact my mum blah..haix den she ask mi to jiayou on the 3sci.........felt so terrible..
hahax ok tink tt's all about wat happened in sch le..hmmm..den on the bus jux now i sat alone den suddenly i was tinking about whether i'm too harsh on my family..dunno leh feel tt if i got any up and downs in my mood or whenever i feel angry i'll definitly scold whoever i can at home..but when i got out of the house and meet my friends dunno y my mood will definitely change back to normal and all smiles and laugh..hahax wondering wt's wrong with mi..mood swing the angle oso too big and it's lyk always auto one..maybe bcuz i tink tt i can show my true feeling at home but not outside..?or is it tt i jux being too used to the fact tt i'm always smiling outside tt my face will auto fix a smile on my face once i see friends...?or is it tt i'm jux fake on the outside...?wow i'm confused..dun bother about mi anyway..jux doing sum soul-searching work here..
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