hahax i'm baq..haix dunno y suddenly feel very uneasy...as if sth it's wrong..hahax but couldn't discover anithing not in order..hahax wish everything's rite..
din go baq to mbs today..hahax partially get influenced by zy..budden even if i go baq i oso nth to do so i din go baq loh..did i made e rite choice..?hahax i mean now every yr now go baq's jux to see my friends..with all the teachers retiring and resigning and transfering..even my principal changed..so i dunno there's anithing for mi to go baq now..sad but realistic...
ya these few days are all downturns for mi..lolx did sth wrong ydae and stiu din manage to find a solution to it yet..yep i kinda flared up lah..haix a big big mistake..i'm regretting it ever since tt minute..but there's no way to go baq now..:'( jux wish tt it can go by w/o a trance *fat hope...?*
hahax tml's holiday~shld feel happy huh..?haix dun feel tt way lah..mi all mess up..arGh~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!hate this feelin!!!!!!
y it jux dun go away.....................
thurs we haf chem test and maths test..wish dun fail it...shld can lah hor..this time the topics quite easy..as long as i get the concept rite..hahax dun tink i'll manage it lah..noe wat i dun even noe how to do the matrices' prob sum...hahax dunno whether to laugh for my own stupidity or cry in disbelief..it's supposed to be such a easy topic and I STIU CAN'T GET IT!wat is my brain make of..?hmmm guess it's gas..
hahax keep on wondering if i'll ever go baq to pri sch days..when i wun haf these prob with result at least..and more amicable..?lolx realise being actively involved in everthing isn't doing ANY gd at all..it jux add on to my prob now..at least u wun make so many enemies and feel hatred so strongly and being called SHOWOFF and being call off and making friends that aint realli friends and neglectin the old ones and being bothered so much at every little thing and being so AA and so tired after all things & events and being treated as if i'm insane and when i'm not active they call mi PMS....okay wat exactly am i now...?i can't possibly be full of energy 24hrs a day and..oh well maybe i can lah..haix i shan't CARE..if it'll do mi or u beta den jux ignore mi..best if i dunno about it tt is..........
u don't know me..do i even know myself..sometimes i wonder whether what i do is right..i don't understand what i do..act as if i care about everything..acting..and acting..i succeeded..got out of my self-pity and loneliness..or did i..fooled myself..cheated everyone..there seems there is no way back now..do i really need to continue acting..i am too tired and too sick..but no one bothers about me..why shld they anyway?when i don't bother about myself either.....
這個世界發了什麼瘋 我的心飛向外層空間
不喜歡我就請你閃開 不要說你有多瞭解我
孤單是現代人的運動 沒人管你的死活
我的名字可以叫自由 可是你又叫做什麼
別說南說北又說東 先生 我聽不懂
我把你富作耳邊風 告訴你真的沒有用
我不是你的那一國 不高興就離開
我就算當一個乞丐 也會比你們都富有
我不是superman也不做spiderman
我要在哪一邊 hey man你管我哪－邊
我什麼都沒說 我什麼也沒做 你說你瞭解我
喂 你瞭解我涸什麼 連我都不知道我是誰
誰是我 so所以你別胡扯拜託 我肯定不是你那一國家
世界很囉唆 狗屁事很多 我不需要眼睛與耳朵
因為先生 我聽不懂