........it's been two days since i last post an entry for the blog.....new sch term...new level of pressure....everyone says it's gonna be a difficult year....it seems everyone needs consolation and ppl telling them not to worry..so i chose to be tt person...weird feeling...telling them not to worry when i myself is maybe even more worried....hahaz...am i trying to be a saint or sth?.............i'm feeling more & more exhausted and tired......i feel myself loosing grip of everything...studies...fun...time...frenz...hope...it seems lyk if it's time to let go of wat u haf, u shld..even if the thing is important to u and u've earned it the hard way...maybe i shld let it go instead of clinching to it till the very end...it's feeling more and more weird...trying to smile when u r feeling sad...trying to please tt someone whom u haf dislyk wif ur heart...or maybe i shld be more optimistic? thing wun be better......maybe it's not tt bad..after all..................